The reality is not beautiful as it seems...

Hello (the end of) July!

owh..but firstly, assalamualaikum to my muslim brothers and sisters....

lets take a moment of silence and recite al-fatihah for our brothers and sisters who will always be in our memory, to GAZA and MH17.........

aku tak terpikir lagi nak buat post pasal diorang..maybe tak, bcoz isu sensitif kan and aku tak nak la bagi info salah lak tak pasal2..jatuh fitnah nnti, dosa die lagi dsyat dari membunuh tuuuuuu



so, the reality........hrmmmm...is the world we are livng now and.........i am actually depressed =.='

bcoz u know, aku rase ade hikmah gak aku fail foundation palam....sounds weird?? so do i......


since bangku sekolah rendah lagi, aku x pernah lagi kecewa kan parents aku ( aicewaaaa..belagak seh mamat ni.....)

NO..citer die bile aku selalu buat diorang bangga (xde la selalu) aku tak pernah tau apa reaksi diorang klo aku disappoint kan diorang.....so.....thats what PALAM life told me.....


without good grades, it feels like i am actually nothing to them..diorang buat aku mcam saham, where you invest and hoping to get more...

ok, parents mane xnak anak berjaya kan?? but on the matter of facts, aku dah dpat course pharmacist kot?? THAt IS AIN'T HALF BAD tau tak......


but still......diorang force aku repeat, so aku bole jadi doktor....

it must be proud when you tell others that your child is a doctor right?? even parents aku pun klo jumpe org luar mesti ketengahkan kkak aku yg doktor tu.......really??

i can;t imagine if i was stupid and nothing to them..would they actually appreciate me?? would they still recognize me as family?? who knows......




hrmmm...air dicincang pun tak akan putus kan.....

well...it all goes after this......my second foundation life in MSU....

P.S :seriously aku baca dari past student....this place is like a sinkhole for your money....i cant imagine hows life there *deprssed

boleh kate kan my life at home is really depressing after palam...

everything doesn't go the way they should man.....it feels like the life is beating you down really bad.....


haih....i don't know what gonna happened after this, I give up on planning...wherever the path took me, thats the only direction i'll walk.....


I'm giving up??? maybe.......maybe not....well, aku tau aku ni takde lah sebaik mane, tapi insyaAllah, bertawakal jela pada keputusan Allah

feels better??? damn better......haha


just dont overthink about something that you can't change folks....

and if there is something you are capable to change....work for it...and leave the rest to the Al Mighty,,,,


I'm not giving up....if this is my path....i'll walk until the end no matter what....


Assalamualaikum....CIAO~

Resurrection of Boyz126

Assalamualaikum,

its been one year sejak aku menaip kat sini..haha..nostalgia bhai...

well, aku da agak matang ke?? hrmmmm..i could say yes..but sometimes not XP

stahun ye...hrmmmm..my last entry is about me before goinfg to PALAM....fiuuu~~ banyak yang da berlaku..hehe

aku malaih la cite hal2 pasal palam skang..bile2 la, lein entry ye abg2 adik2 sekalian...

Oops, n the ending of my palam life is not so good, but i could say the bad things is only the ending..haha

soo...its been 2 (almost 3) month aku cuti..keje?? hrmmm, tu yang sume kawan2 aku buat..and aku?? well, tau la mak aku yg overprotective tu kan *pandang ke atas

'bez ar xyah keje, dok umah buat taik mata...

mesti korang piki camtu kan?? haha..tipu ar, sbb aku pn piki bnde yang same..tapi, folks........the reality is not beautiful as it seems (spoiler next entry..hahaha)

why?? WHYYYYYYY??!!!

bcoz....*drum roll...........bile aku x keje, family expect aku untuk buat sume errand

'alah, keje sikit merungut..baru sikit'

yes....tapi memandang family aku pn piki bende yg same, so keje aku pn bnyak laa......

penah denga sikit2 lama2 jadi bukit?? yup..that is how you can imagine my daily work..sikit dari si emak nye, sikit dari si kkak nye, sikit dari si ayah nye..lame2 keje aku pn mcam la FiretrUCK ....

 hade bantahan?? leave it under the comment below bro *thumbs up


sooo..my first post after being off for a year is complaining about my family??? hrmmmmm.......

PERFECT =D


so peeps.................Boyz126 is BACK

see ya all very soon...ciao~

Counting days~

Assalamualaikum...so how's life treating you peeps??

Hrmm...x lame dah lagi aku kat umah..insyaALLAH lagi brape hari lagi aku nak sambung studi...

Bez ke ar?? Entah la...aku tak tau la nak cakap camne..excited? X jugak..risau? X jugak....tak seronok ke nak jumpe kawan2 baru?? Entah la....kawan baru? Kawan yg kat sini pun berape kerat je....hahaha

So, honestly, sejak akhir2 ni aku depressed sikit.....OMAAIIGGOOODD!!

Haha..aku yang hidup takde tanggungjawab ni pun bole depressed ek?  Aku pun pelik...but then, when i rethink about it..........at least i don't bother others :P

Well, aku depressed pun bukan sebab ape..maybe kurang beribadat kot :3   hrmm...most likely...tapi ape yang aku pikir sampai dapat depressed yg sia2 ni??

Crush...ok....everybody have one and its common..but right now for me its not..i've been wasting all my time thinking how i could get her attention.....so that she could like me the way i like her.....

Ok first...aku tau aku mmg loser, kusut kan kepale otak pikir bende bukan2 yg x bawak manfaat langsung plus....she's so popular..she's beautiful, funny, out-going, open minded and quite religious too...she has tons of friends...while me stay in the house washing cars and water the plants....

My social life is pathetic....compared to her life..why would she look up at me? And you trying to make her LIKES you? She doesn't even know how to spell your name correctly!! Dammnnn la...

Why am i writing all this in the middle of the morning? Coz i don't want to think about it anymore and aku nak luah kan semua nye....

I know this maybe cause by my hormone messed up..want to love and to be loved, some sort like that..so, aku try untuk buang feeling ni jau2, bia sampai laut pasifik sekali pun..coz i know that my head says 'NO'

Plus...why would i tried so hard to impress one girl when i could a bunch at the IPT, am i right? Let say if i COULD make her like me, and then we start flirting and coupling.....and then....when i go to further my study.....there's a super cute girl dying to get in love with me (just imagination...haha) that would be a waste right?? Hahaha

Well....I miss the old me..a freak who enjoy his lonely life...at least i'm able to smile at that time, talk to myself and sometimes making myself laugh...haha...ok thats too pathetic...

So, thanks blogger for giving me a place that i could be myself...peerrghh...puas gile hati ni...haha..alhamdulillah, tak larat dah aku nak pikio bende2 ni lagi dah....haha

Ok then...enough for this post...lets go get a life...hahaha

Assalamualaikum
CAO~

you MAY come in, MAY

assalamualaikum...its already May?? wow...time do flies....tuptup...dah bulan 5 dah......lagi 2 bulan ramadhan, pastu raye...n then, akhir tahun n then 2014??? wow......cepat gile mase berlalu....


so...how am i doing for the past few days?? emmm...ok, i guess...nothing extraordinary or exciting happening.....

it's already 12.20, 5th May 2013.....nak tau apa akan jadi??? General Election!!! =D


ermm...bende ni dah kecoh sejak awal tahun aritu, tapi aku maleh le nak update politik2 ni...kejap die btul, kejap die salah...aku yang x terlibat pun dah pening =.='


but...honestly, ko tau pe yang aku pikir??? Revolution.....


wanna know why?? because PKR dah disokong oleh hampir sume rakyat malaysia.....so i wouldn't suprise if BN gonna lose tomorrow....


but hey....BN still ade penyokong sendiri.....so, they still have a chance to win....alright?


but...even though BN will win tomorrow.....boleh ke PKR menerima keputusan se adil nye???


aku gerenti yang akan timbul cerita BN menipu, rasuah, undi hantu or whatsoever untuk membuktikan yg PKR yang patut menang....


and then, BERSIH will be held.....masing2 nak kan pertukaran kerajaan, pertukaran pentadbiran pemimpin etc.....


in the end?? BN akan still jatuh...don't you think??


BERSIH 3.0 berjalan dengan lancar...everybody hurt, the mastermind gelak dari jauh.....


so...x mustahil klo diorang kalah, BERSIH akan diadakan lagi.....dan lagi......dan lagi.......dan lagi.....dengan ugutan tampuk pemerintahan di tukar....


klo BN still bertahan wlaupun sehingga BERSIH ke 12 sekali pun....akan timbul cerita kerajaan x ambil berat pasal pandangan rakyat sehingga rakyat terkorban join BERSIH untuk membuka minda kerajaan....and then BERSIH akan bertukar lebih brutal kepada.......revolution???


can you imagine?? revolution just in front of your house?? its gonna be chaos.....

blood everywhere...man killing each other..people loss their family member....dead bodies everywhere......history is repeating itself.......



so...aku mendoakan whoever win tomorrow(today)  Malaysia akan still terus maju dan aman walau siapa pun yang memerintah.....amin....

Malaysia...tanah tumpahnya darahku.........

that's all for this post......

TAKE IT EASY...

.......and PRAY FOR THE BEST

Assalamualaikum....

CAO......

little sad :'(

assalamualaikum....

heeelllllooooo peeps...

so how's April?? haha..hope you are doing fine...

well...untuk post kali ni aku nak citer bab2 yang menyedihkan sikit....

bukan nye aku suke spread the negative aura ni..ish2...not my taste, haha...tapi yela, aku ni manusia gak, ade up and down nye, ye x??


so..baru2 ni (pagi tadi, baru lagi ni,  panas lagi...haha) aku check my upu result....well, upu aku mohon Uitm, UPNM, UKM and UIAM...

sume aku mohon asasi perubatan....but my highest hope was UPNM...you know, military college...

study die tanggung, makan pun die tanggung siap dapat duit elaun lagi every month yang boleh mencecah ribuan ringgit!! (hamboi dah macam berita awani plak....haha)


tapi ape kan daya...xde rezeki =')

imagine aku further study in medic....at the same time training to be a soldier.....


DAMN!!! i could be a tough doctor!! and that would be so cool~~.....but being a doctor is already good thing.....so that would be fine.....


but i'm still waiting for my last hope..Uitm, and Mara special program.....please...anywhere, as long as it involve medic =(


and luckily i just read my older post...and past me(?) has taught me someting...

No matter how hard the situation is......

~KEEP YOUR HEAD UP AND SMILE~

CAO~

assalamualaikum....

AssPeeAim?? hamiiikk ko~~

so herre comes April!! wuwuut!!

cepat tul mase berlalu kan?? rasa mcam baru je sambut new year aritu..haha

so...news??

result SPM da kuar~~ 21 March aritu...how's the result???

well...alhamdulillah, aku bersyukur ngan rezeki yang aku dapat ni walaupun x seberapa...8A 1B+


niat aku nk mempersembahkan result straight A kpada mak bapak aku...tapi ape kan daya, tu je yang aku mampu.....


ibu, ayah...maaf diriku andai ku tidak mampu membalas penat lelah mu yang telah menjaga ku selama ini...ampun kan la diriku andai kau kecewa dengan result ku ini........ikhlas dari hati kecil ku......


plus, yg b tu plak my favourite subjek plak tu...mmg sedi ar...menangis gak la aku time amik result tu...sedi woo!!

well...bnde dah jadi nk wat camne kan...bukan nye aku bole terjah KPM bwak M16 sruh tuka result aku...hahahaha


so...mane hala tuju ku selepas ini???

insyaALLAH.....aku still berhajat nk sambung medic...tapi dimana, bia Allah lah yg tentukan...


so...tu saje la khabar berita ku untuk kli ini...nnti bile2 aku update lagi ye....

CAO~
Assalamualaikum....

I'm BAAGGG

wow...hampir 2 bulan aku x update blog ni...patut nye kene update minimum skali sbulan...I'M A TERRIBLE BLOGGER!!!

haha..ini sume poyo~~ aku bukan la blogger, blog ni pun cume diari peribadi aku je...orait?? so sorry la klo stiap kli ade yang melawat asyik baca bende same je....

so....wat's up March??

everything's good.........DAH NAK DAPAT RESULT!!!!!

so...insyaALLAH, minggu depan dalam 20hb akan keluarlah result spm.....

expectation?? aku x expect ape2..cume aku harap dapat membanggakan parent aku dengan result aku nnti....n i hope that i'm able to study for the coarse that i want with the result...(plus, klo bole dapat biasiswa pun cantik gak ;D haha)



so...result dah nak kuar..2/3 bulan nnti akan mula lah kemasukan....that means.....holiday almost over~~

i love holiday okay?? everyone do...but its over..so.....WRRRAAAGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!

wei nak tau x??

te tibe aku rasa rindu plak kat ex aku..hahaha...stupid me right??


well, bukan nye aku x bole terus kan idup tanpa die..but....sala korang gak ar yg asyik update status/tweet berbunga2 ngan cintan2 sume tu!!!! haha


hrmm...its not easy to get loved you know........ke aku yg x attractive?? *.*  haha..who cares....

well, kitorang still contact...walaupun sbagai kawan...kitorang pretty close.....maybe.....haha


dah2....ni yang malas citer jiwang2 ni....nnti start ar ayat bunga2 yg keluar..haha


tapi oleh kerana aku pun dah xde bende nk taip lagi, aku pun elaborate la skit tajuk cintan2 ni....

hrmm.....kadang2 rsa rindu plak bile dah contact2 ngan die....ayat still pkai 'saya' 'awak'  =P


so...wat should i do next?? should i try to talk her that we could getting back together??  or maybe juz let it go.....??


haish...tapi aku rase aku pilih choice yg ke-2...ala...nnti masuk U bukan nye xde awek2 cun kaaaannnnnn?????  hahaha


lagipun cukup la pe kitorang lalui sbelum ni...actually, nothing bad really happen betwen us..no fight (de la kadang2 bertengkar skit) never miss a gudnite wish =P  and we sure have fun spending time together


i guess we could have the best sweet relationship ever...if my family doesn't interrupt us =.=


haha...never mind...if we are destiny to be together, nothing can stop us, insyaALLAH....(dah macam cinta masa darurat tu..LOL)


so...to love another person?? nahh....it's almost a year since we break up and i dun  feel like falling in love with someone else....(minat tu adela kadang2....juz minat je~~)


mampukah cinta antara kami berputik kembali?? (ayat macam drama tu...puiii.....) haha...tngok je la camne nnti.....

poyo?? ye...memang pun..

so...cukup cukup sudah....beik aku pegi saja....

CAO~

Assalamualaikum...