One Day After Another

Assalamualaikum..how is it going? its Saturday, im alone in my room...well its 4 days holiday in shah alam anyway so everybody going back hometown..but not me??


well, tomorrow is a big day, remember the run?? The Medic Intervarsity Games, MIVG, takes place tomorrow..honestly i dont know what to expect..do i thought of winning? of course i do..its just a competition among medical students..but its not official, so the competition maybe, just MAYBE is not that high..but on second thought, it IS among medical student in malaysia..and why am i entering the only competition with the highest number of participant..lol


fyi, im in 100m track run..they got around 22 more participant from other university..what am i thinking?? hahaha..in the end i think i just gonna give it my all you know..yeah, the winning chances are small, really small..but excuses are for pussy right?? hahaha plus ive bought a tight that cost around rm50 last night..pricey i know..


who teach you about those excuses?? hahaha..yeah, i still think about her..how shouldn't i, we meet, text and change silly stories everyday..i know its kinda pathetic, but i need to give it a rest..you know, last friday, she met her 'friend' who she told me she had crush on..and she keep telling me that (maybe because her others girlfriend doesnt really like that guy) how they progressing..well, how should i say, i hurts me little bit inside to know all that even thought im the one insist to know it..there's is one time where she shows her text with him and i was laughing when deep inside i was FUCKING PISSED


yeah i know, thats jealousy speaking..and im not gonna be that guy who restrain the girl to do what she want just because i dont like it...its not she someone to me..when she doesnt had support from her girls, then she'll look for me..realize that?? im just her bestfriend for god sake..and she could look for another if she wants to...


i dont know why i keep thinking about this..i keep telling myself that she is just a friend and how blessed am i to have her..you know how my parents doesn't really like me having a girlfriend during my studies..well, shes perfect..shes not my girlfriend but we are more than just a friend..great right? I still keep my words with my parents, thats what important


i just get tired of thinking about it..she gonna have a boyfriend, and lets be honest, theres ton of other guy who is after her, if she's gonna pick one, you gonna have to be the last man on earth to be that guy..and stop having crush with your own friend hahaha..haaiiihhhh..thats it i guess..i just keep her as bestfriend..thats the best right?? its not like shes ever gonna date her classmates, you know it haha..love yourself man like how i love the one who is reading this...

P.s : writing this post while listening to Dont Wanna Know by Maroon 5 is just perfect😂


CIAO~

Really dude??

I know, i know..i disappear for a whole year, now im posting 2 posts in 2 days..what gives??

honestly, if you know me, this the place where i end up to express myself if i find myself in a shit hole. So, what happen to our L that makes him crawl back here??

First, when i reread my older post, i just realize that about 40% to 60% of it is about love..the fuck?? that is not what my 6years ago would imagine myself to be..messing myself up because of a woman? Now that is a really pathetic ways to live


If you are looking something to mess your head up with, then think about study(which i should be doing now by the time my exam is next 2 weeks) your financial management, your FUTURE self..there is a lot of thing to think rather than looking for a person..self improvement i would say cause i know you, when you with someone there is a little self improvement going on right


And also, if you keep thinking of the small shit going on, how would you focus on the real thing? Yes, i know your roommate is a bitch..then why would you gives a shit? stop thinking about it cause it not gonna change a thing unless theres an action you can do..but look, for now, you have nowhere to go and your family cant know about this so just live with it..JUST STOP GIVE A DAMN FUCK..live like nothing happens..i know sometimes you had to look for a time to study cause he always blast the music in the room, then go outsie in the living room..why are you being such a whiny bitch


theres always a solution to a problem..but if you dont want those changes, then learn how to adapt with it or dont give a fuck at all..get it? your problem is not a real problem..


Well, do i need it? yup, i need to remind my future self that you could stop giving excuses and start work on what matters..comprende??


good..now enough with conflicts of feelings..you got something big to do L

~CIAO~

First post of 2016

Ite been what? a year?? haha..trust me, its not like i was super busy its just i dont have that sparks that tell me to wite..haha..despite all that, this blog, boyz126, will always be my online diary..which is somehow have their own pro and cons..haha


My last post is about Little Temerloh Girl..god, how much i really want to delete that post..hahahaha..but im not..not for now maybe..well, if i am reading this,i think i know well enough why that post hit me harder than it should..am i still trying to get over her? maybe yes...maybe no...i dont know..now i feel like abit alone you know..still trying to get used to this single life haha

enough about my damn love life..writing suppose to make me feel the time..haha..and if you wonder what the hell am i talking about, i dont know if future me will remember this but if you want...

to feel time : write

to travel time : read

to escape time : music

to WASTE time : social media

See the capital letters?? keep that in mind😂

the time i writing this, i have only 2 weeks before my next progress test 2(the irony lol)..which i need to score..and when i mean by need to score, i really need to score because the past 2 exams we had i just at the border line of failing..C- is not great bro..even few people are saying that i should put more effort..and fyi for semester 1 exam, i dont game(maybe, just a lil) for a week..guess what, its not sufficient brah..maybe if you replace gaming with studying it would change alot hahaha

And also, on 11st of December, i am participating at the Medical Intervarsity Games, MIVG..its not a big fuss, just my first doing activities with other uni(what do you expect, Im on my first year). its not like we represent MSU because we better than the other students. MSU just not interested in those kind of thing which tell me why they haven't send any representative hahaha..so me and my friend are taking this opportunity to get into this thing with the name of our Uni..i just hope we dont lose miserably and bring our Uni name to rock bottom of shame pit. p.s: this friend im talking about...do i need to make a post about it?? hahaha

Guess thats all happening right now..Think its a lot? guess who put himself into all this..hahaha..joking, im not even busy(should i?) or i would not have the time to write here anyway. You still thinking of becoming a great man? Then push yourself a lil harder L

I really need to make a post to push myself in study...

~CIAO~