Assalamualaikum..how is it going? its Saturday, im alone in my room...well its 4 days holiday in shah alam anyway so everybody going back hometown..but not me??
well, tomorrow is a big day, remember the run?? The Medic Intervarsity Games, MIVG, takes place tomorrow..honestly i dont know what to expect..do i thought of winning? of course i do..its just a competition among medical students..but its not official, so the competition maybe, just MAYBE is not that high..but on second thought, it IS among medical student in malaysia..and why am i entering the only competition with the highest number of participant..lol
fyi, im in 100m track run..they got around 22 more participant from other university..what am i thinking?? hahaha..in the end i think i just gonna give it my all you know..yeah, the winning chances are small, really small..but excuses are for pussy right?? hahaha plus ive bought a tight that cost around rm50 last night..pricey i know..
who teach you about those excuses?? hahaha..yeah, i still think about her..how shouldn't i, we meet, text and change silly stories everyday..i know its kinda pathetic, but i need to give it a rest..you know, last friday, she met her 'friend' who she told me she had crush on..and she keep telling me that (maybe because her others girlfriend doesnt really like that guy) how they progressing..well, how should i say, i hurts me little bit inside to know all that even thought im the one insist to know it..there's is one time where she shows her text with him and i was laughing when deep inside i was FUCKING PISSED
yeah i know, thats jealousy speaking..and im not gonna be that guy who restrain the girl to do what she want just because i dont like it...its not she someone to me..when she doesnt had support from her girls, then she'll look for me..realize that?? im just her bestfriend for god sake..and she could look for another if she wants to...
i dont know why i keep thinking about this..i keep telling myself that she is just a friend and how blessed am i to have her..you know how my parents doesn't really like me having a girlfriend during my studies..well, shes perfect..shes not my girlfriend but we are more than just a friend..great right? I still keep my words with my parents, thats what important
i just get tired of thinking about it..she gonna have a boyfriend, and lets be honest, theres ton of other guy who is after her, if she's gonna pick one, you gonna have to be the last man on earth to be that guy..and stop having crush with your own friend hahaha..haaiiihhhh..thats it i guess..i just keep her as bestfriend..thats the best right?? its not like shes ever gonna date her classmates, you know it haha..love yourself man like how i love the one who is reading this...
P.s : writing this post while listening to Dont Wanna Know by Maroon 5 is just perfect😂
CIAO~
